Friday, September 16, 2011

lack of motivation

Can someone please inject me with some motivation!?  I am having the hardest time getting back to my sewing machine.  It's like I'm afraid to sit in the chair...

I just can't bring myself back to it after such devastating and earth shattering news being received in May while sitting at my sewing machine, in my fantastic sewing chair, with fabric in my hand and my foot on the pedal.  I just can't bring myself to do it.  I think I'm afraid to get another phone call.  Afraid to hear that someone else has been injured, killed, murdered...It's been so hard this year.  I lost a friend who was truly my sister on December 27th, 2010 to an overdose of heroin.  I then lose my dear cousin on May 27th, 2011 to a domestic violence murder.  I'm feeling a bit lost in this uncreative, uninspired, unmotivated pool of emotions.


I'm thinking I need to move my sewing room all together.   Maybe if I move the creative thinking zone somewhere else I'll be able to sit down again.  Look at my fabric and feel love and inspiration.

I have been reading my favourite blogs regarding sewing and have been trying to feel motivated.  And it's been working.  I'll get excited.  Go upstairs, walk into my sewing area and freeze up, walk away, and come back to the computer.  I just don't think I can do it.  I've missed out on such fantastic summer sewing ideas.  Now I'm cutting into my Halloween sewing time.

Well, I think I'm done now. 

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